Editor's Note Vol 5: Iss 1

This collection of work comes from a Group Health Writer’s Conference. Participants were asked to write for 10-15 minutes, creating a “Quick Write” piece to share with their group and with us. These short stories, told in a few minutes, tell stories deeply personal, heartfelt, and heartwarming; stories of becoming whole, finding self, finding home, and helping patients to become whole—emotionally if not physically. These are stories of loss and hope; stories of humanity. The images reflect that humanity: a flower from a loved one and a mother’s “worship flower,” a footstep in the sand, and more.

 We tell our stories and create images to express our human experience; we read stories and gaze upon art to share in that experience, to learn from the experience of others, and to revel in our own humanity. I hope you enjoy these brief revelries.

—Max McMillen, ELS

Nebraska Farm Scenes

Prose, Volume 5; Issue 1

My patient was 85 years old and dying of metastatic pancreatic cancer. It seemed as though her daughters, in expressing their angst over the death and dying of their mother, overshadowed the real patient. They consumed her waking moments, suffered loudly their mother’s pain so that she could not allow her own pain to push out of her; not through movement, no writhing, no crying, no moaning.

The girls, in their sixties, insisted that pictures of their dead father surround the patient’s head so that when she opened her eyes they would be all she would see.

The mother disclosed that she was distressed by these photographs. Her husband had abused her, suppressed her and her spirit. He took her from the Nebraska farm where she was born and belonged.  He took her away to Seattle when she was 16 years old and never fulfilled his promise to allow her to go home. 

She wanted the pictures replaced with images of farmland and cattle without disclosing to her daughters how terrorized she felt by the images of their father. She asked to be kept asleep so she wouldn’t have to bear her children’s loud crying, disturbing her busy thoughts about her own life. They would wake her to her pain and scream when they saw agony on their mothers face forcing her to beat down her pain. She could manage only a few minutes. They woke her over and over in search of their mother’s comfort—mommy is leaving.

I had to orchestrate replacing the pictures with Nebraska farm scenes and keep her sedated against her childrens’ need … making up rules about noise, visits, needed procedures just to give her the privacy she needed for her dying moments.

She ultimately got her solitary wish, her private review and her beautiful cow-covered grasslands and, I am sure, with her thoughts made it back home. 

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